Ben, although I may not seem to care sometimes, trust me.. I do care. Whenever you want to talk, I'm there... I've seen you as a friend, as a best friend in the ~2 years I've known you.. You've always been there for me as somebody who I can talk to about almost anything.... whether that be personal things I just need to rant about or talk to somebody about or whether it's about online things...
When you kind of dissappeared the first time, I was worried... I was scared, and even though it's now happened multiple times, I've gotten even more worried & scared for you - even though I may be just an 'online friend' to a lot of people, I care about these friends a lot and to be fair, maybe even more than I kind of care about some of my IRL friends.
This community has given me the best set of friends I could ever ask for, including yourself. All I can say is what pretty much everyone else has said so I'm just not going to repeat it - remember, I'm always here for you whenever you need it, you've got my Kik, you've got my phone number... Do what is right for yourself. c: