It's hard to handle, definitely. But one of the bad things about death, is that really the only way to get away from it is to keep moving forward and don't always bring it up. I have had a Grandmother and two Grandfathers pass away, the first happening since I was 8, but I move forward and I'm still grateful for the family I have and my 1 Grandmother. But don't forget them in your hearts, because that's a place they will never leave, dead or alive.