Do you Suffer from Depression?

[Mooclan]

This actually made me cry, my inital thought were EWW You ugly girl! But then I watched it and cried half way through.


I've tried "not caring" and it doesn't work anymore because i'm emotionally weak, I've become stronger overtime but I cry to the most silly things ever.


^^ and by the way i've joined alot of clans in the past, from your post on page one of this thread.



Nope... Depression isn't a nice thing, and it's not easy as someone saying "stop being depressed and get out there."


Okay guys, well.

I did say i'm socially awkward...
I didn't mention that EVERYBODY I know calls me the "smartass" but I see myself as the dumb idiot.
I didn't mention that I breifly tried to be that "determined" person with a positive attitude for a while then gave up after trying and trying to loose weight and nothing worked. I lost 3 pounds within 4 months... So yeah...
I used to be VERY good at sport when I was little.
When I was about 10 years old, I probably had the mental age of a 7 year old but expressed myself as a 10 year old, I didn't understand anything until late in primary school and every single door opened up for me when I went to secondary school.
I am Emotionally weak, ALOT of things get to me... I almost cried when I was told I was "smart" by a ex-teacher at my primary school. And did it recently as well... Since I was angry with another teacher 3 months ago. She came up too me and said "I hope you realize that you're an extremely intelligent child. Joseph." I then almost cried but thought to myself that if I cry i'll break my laptop and my phone so I have no assess to social media anymore so I can no longer use the internet (which I didn't do because I knew I would regret that.)

And there's alot of other stuff too. I've tried talking to friends, i've tried watching funny things, i've tried to be optimistic...

I'm just thinking now. Life is too short. Why bother with anything? Why not use drugs, smoke, have sex and do bad sh*t and stuff to people's lives and be the most selfish person in the world. It seems pretty cool...

Well, I don't do that because it's not me... And I wouldn't resort to that level. But I hate being a nerd, and you can't be a "Normal" guy because then it's just like you inside a metal box waiting for something worth while too do which never happens.


Now, this image might seem incredibly strange, but I made it earlier because of... I can?
It might mean nothing to you. But it means alot to me.
Abandonment... I feel like all my friends that I used to have, have just abandoned me.

The Image is called - Unknown WAY... It won't make sense to you, but it makes perfect sense to me.

right click, open in new tab.

The image isn't showing up for me, or in imgur.
Edit: Nevermind. Tried a few more times, and it finally worked.

 

[chockadlad]

.....just remember that when it comes to harrassment, the MCSG Staff doesn't always care if you're best friends or not .-.

Hey, I'm built like a bamboo shoot, can't talk to people that I don't already know (Without extreme discomfort), physically cannot show emotion when talking to strangers or people that I'm nervous around, and I'm about as pretty as a cow. Get on my level.

(My pastor said a few times "Y u so skinny? You liek bamboo! You need 2 eat moar!") (He's Chinese, btw.)

Edit: LOL, it posted this one post three times because of my bad internet xD

Yeah, I'm also pretty thin, autistic,short and talking is sometimes an issue, depending on situations, but getting friends? Not really gonna happen. I have like one IRL friend I see occasionally (once every 1-3 weeks, but sometimes more often). Not really an extrovert anyways, so it doesn't bother me too much, but I'd like having more friends.

 

[Mooclan]

Yeah, I'm also pretty thin, autistic,short and talking is sometimes an issue, depending on situations, but getting friends? Not really gonna happen. I have like one IRL friend I see occasionally (once every 1-3 weeks, but sometimes more often). Not really an extrovert anyways, so it doesn't bother me too much, but I'd like having more friends.

Haven't seen my last IRL friend since school last ended. And even then, I never got to say goodbye. He just walked off. *Stares daggers at Newton_123*

 

[chockadlad]

Haven't seen my last IRL friend since school last ended. And even then, I never got to say goodbye. He just walked off. *Stares daggers at Newton_123*

Man, that's just uncool.

 

[MrMad2000]

Well. Here's another story...

I met KatyRoseRain in the lobby back in v1
we talked
I love the name katy
KatyRoseRain reminds me alot of my used to be friend/ex (girlfriend?) (we wern't in a relationship but ya know C Called Katy Reynolds. And that image is actually the reason behind it

The Heart in the middle has a chain, the heart it mixed up with different colours and distorted, the chain is too resemble that our friendship would never break, then in the middle there is this impossible (almost) to read text saying

Where
Are
You

Hence the name of the image being Unknown, since i've not spoke to her for ages and I don't think she liked me from the beggining which also brought the betrayal factor into it. And the WAY part, Where Are You. As in why did you leave me and where are you e.t.c and stuff...


edit : Lately, all i've been seeming to talk about is KatyRoseRain and the Inappropriate body part on a male FIGURES Movie... I'm weird...

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Edit : I just put my flexible ruler underneath my laptop and burnt my face... #Winning.

Edit : Charlie Sheen is stupid. #Winning still.

 

[Mooclan]

Man, that's just uncool.

Don't tell anyone, but.... someone who I had a crush on sat on my desk while I was napping in the last 5 minutes of the last class of the entire school year, so I'm ok with that




LOL.

Well. Here's another story...

I met KatyRoseRain in the lobby back in v1
we talked
I love the name katy
KatyRoseRain reminds me alot of my used to be friend/ex (girlfriend?) (we wern't in a relationship but ya know C Called Katy Reynolds. And that image is actually the reason behind it

The Heart in the middle has a chain, the heart it mixed up with different colours and distorted, the chain is too resemble that our friendship would never break, then in the middle there is this impossible (almost) to read text saying

Where
Are
You

Hence the name of the image being Unknown, since i've not spoke to her for ages and I don't think she liked me from the beggining which also brought the betrayal factor into it. And the WAY part, Where Are You. As in why did you leave me and where are you e.t.c and stuff...


edit : Lately, all i've been seeming to talk about is KatyRoseRain and the Inappropriate body part on a male FIGURES Movie... I'm weird...

Dang, that's deep .-.

 

[MrMad2000]

Not

Don't tell anyone, but.... someone who I had a crush on sat on my desk while I was napping in the last 5 minutes of the last class of the entire school year, so I'm ok with that




LOL.



Dang, that's deep .-.

Really....

That...

Deep...

 

[Qualia]

Yeah, I'm also pretty thin, autistic,short and talking is sometimes an issue, depending on situations, but getting friends? Not really gonna happen. I have like one IRL friend I see occasionally (once every 1-3 weeks, but sometimes more often). Not really an extrovert anyways, so it doesn't bother me too much, but I'd like having more friends.

Actually tell me in Skype instead of constantly offering me a cookie pls

 

[chockadlad]

Actually tell me in Skype instead of constantly offering me a cookie pls

wut

 

[Jon | Lqzer]

Thanks for the follow, man!

Just remember, everybody is worth something to somebody. Don't ever think of suicide, that won't fix things. There is always a point in living, you'll always have a place in life. This, too, shall pass.

 

[MrMad2000]

Guys, i'm actually not sure what to do though... So help would be nice... Here's a list of things I used to enjoy/or still do, and the things I do so tell me how I can actually overcome depression with these things if you can think of anything... :/


Things I used to enjoy.

Graphics Design.
Music.
Singing.
MCSG
Animation.
Maths
English
Reading. (To a certain degree.)
Youtube. (Just For Laugh Gags, Markiplier Game, Pewdiepie, Mondo Media, MonsterCat, Bart Baker, MyMusicPodcast/Show, Ray William Johnson, VSauce, Smosh, NigaHiga. ETC.)
Video Editing.
Going on Facebook.
Playing Wartune. (An 18+ fantasy RPG game, it's 18+ because the females arn't covered up very well (nude.)
Typing?
Talking

Things I never enjoyed...

Reading.
Writing.
Wearing my glasses.
Feeling depressed.
Twitter.
Talking in a youtube video (commentary.)
Weird stuff.

 

[chockadlad]

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Try some new things! Speedcubing, puzzles, building in minecraft, etc.