I couldn't agree anymore with all your points.
Thats really why when one of my friends resigns —or even gets demoted—I don't feel sad for them, because even they didn't felt part of the team.
Its really silly how, there is, what, 10-18 Sr. Mods now? All I hear is they are less approachable, and what-not, but Sr.mods are necessary in most cases for Moderators. Even myself sometimes I find it hard to talk to a Sr.mod about some issues I've had.
I am the same as you are. I can't be 100% myself IRL. Though, I'm very blessed of meeting 1 person, which is the only one who I can be myself with. I always say that, if I took myself out there like I do in the internet I would be a very successful person irl —but I guess myself and most people IRL don't share enough in common for me to actually do so, and people in real life don't take me seriously, I am the person who makes everyone laugh, the guy who doesn't comes to school all the time, what-not?
Good luck with your future endeavours c: I talked to you once on creative, and you seemed to take care of your staff position greatly —and did assist players in need c: .