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Thank you for sharing your story with us!NOTICE:ChadTheDJ: Oh Chad! How would my experience be if you didn't make these servers. Thank you for making these servers and making an almost impossible dream back then a reality
Before you begin to read, I just simply want to start out by saying what I did was entirely wrong, and I regret doing it. A punishment is what I don't want to be sought, but compassion. I don't sought for embarrassment, but forgiveness. I am sorry for all the people I fooled, but this is a guilt that I have been keeping secret for months now.
My super brief story:
On the 18th of August 2013, I first got Minecraft. I begged day after day to get it, and proved myself that I can pay 27 dollars for a game, so then, my mother bought it for me, and I happily got on. The first server I immediately went to was MCSG, because of my obsession with it, and of the Youtubers that I saw play them, more specifically, a more obscure Youtuber, Antastiq. So I played for a long while, and got attached to the servers. So one day, I decided to take it a step forward to sign up in the forums. My first account to many, but this one is my second and main. I mainly signed up because I was so eager to help out with the community by applying for mod, and this is my mistake. So I did all that and got declined.This went on for a couple of mod apps until I got pending, then declined. I then made an app that was actually good and I got interview. Things happened; got declined. Not going into detail, but things happened. Fast forwarding. Got interview the second time, and I got declined. At that point on, I had no effort to go on the servers again. I just was done because I have done over 8-10 applications, and nothing was really gained from. "Just do your best" they said. I enjoyed my experience here, and to actually put into perspective, I actually gained something. Now to the horrible part.
The Truth and Secret:
As I have said before, please do not embarrass me of this, because I am ashamed of this. Sorry for all the ones I deceived and failed by this thread. I'm writing this because of the guilt that it has brought me. Ok, so here it is. The thing that I have been hiding since last year. I'm not 14. Yep, there you have it. If you know me, then I'm sorry. So sorry what deception I have brought to you. I never meant it to be that way. When I decided to do that, I put my will in front of my honour and my dignity, and I beat myself up for that. I am so sorry. I wish that I wouldn't have to face consequences, but I feel that is what should happen. I ask that you don't punish, for I feel as if I can redeem myself, but I guess that is the cost of mistakes. Right now it feels good that I lot go of that, and all I want below is support. It took a lot of guts to write this and I just want support. Again, please don't punish me severely. Maybe to never submit an application here, but I'm ok with that, because I realized what endeavors I should do which is more important; the endeavors that I sought for is the ones that are not on Earth. They can't be stolen, damaged, lost, et cetera. Its endeavors that I want to save myself. To save.
The Goodbye:
Now that I have told over 200,000+ my secret, I guess this is goodbye. Don't expect to see me a lot. I might just in all. I might stop by once in a while, but thats it. I'm ashamed about what I have done. A permanent ban is not what I'm asking for. I'm just asking for forgiveness. Well, I guess I should list the people that made my MCSG experience great:
AlpakaWhacker: You really made me laugh at times Jamie! You brought life into me and really helped me apply after what happened. Even though I'm leaving, I'm still counting on you to get Turris Tremores on the servers with VIP and all that stuff ;D.
Mooclan: Oh Alex, what can I say? You were probably the closest friend I had on MCGN. You helped me when I was at the worst and at the peak of myself. A long road we took together as friends. I helped you and you helped me. What I can say about you can go to the infinitum of how many numbers are between 0 and 1. All I can say is that you are practically the most trustworthy friend I can ask for.
Vanicle: Who other than Vanicle? You were basically the saviour of my mod road. If it weren't for you, I might have not gone super far. Thank you for what you done.
And to every single community member out there that were not mentioned, thank you for what you have given me. A server to go to when nothing was right. Thank you
I love you all. Every single one of you. The last of me has been seen. I love you.
This was XDBFplaysGamesX, otherwise known as Daniel here. Over and out.
On more of a side note, I will have you know that I am also a victim of a guilty conscience. I have lied to many, many people within the MCGamer Network, but I felt like it was with good reason and intentions. I lied about who I was because I felt that me lying was nothing compared to what I could provide to the community; a voice of support and understanding, as well as, a more positive atmosphere. I still stand by it today and I regret nothing because it has been what has got me here today and it has been able to make me a stronger person. In other words, our lives are built on our mistakes, as much as our successes.
I really, really hope that you do not leave. Based off of what I have read, your intentions are nothing but pure. You are the type of person that the Staff Team needs; someone with never-ending dedication and who is willing to put themselves in awkward situations for the better sake of the community. It is people like you, people who can share their personal stories and lessons with others, that can help make a positive impact on the lives of so many other people in and outside of this community. Being able to share your personal stories and lessons allows for others to understand and learn from them. Who knows, by sharing these experiences with others, you may save someone else all the pain and suffering you have suffered. Also, by opening up, and admitting to your lies, makes you a much, much better and stronger person. Not everyone is capable of doing so.
All-in-all, I support your decisions and your reasonings. This is just a moment of growth for you.
With love and support,
Equalitee | Christopher.