Not trying to be an asshole, but I don't think you can really 'love' someone until they became a part of your daily life, and not just through a computer screen. The people I've met in Phoenix are way better friends to me than most people I know in real life. Not sure whether that's bad or not, but regardless, it's how I feel. Fact is, and to my disappoint, I'm probably only going to know these people for a few more years at most. Life goes on. Another thing is, I feel great about these people, but I have no clue how they'd treat me if I knew them in real life; we've stuck together and had a blast, but for all I know, my same friends could be some of the biggest assholes I may know irl. It's really sad to accept, but I think that's just the way it is. The only people I think I may possibly stay in contact with for ages are Phoenix members in Melbourne. One day you're probably going to meet someone who you like, and he's going to have the same feelings. It's times like these that you're forced to make a choice between someone you're with online and a person in the real world. People can be anyone over a computer screen, you need to know who they hang with and what they do in the real world do understand who they are. Without that, you can't 'love' them. I know who it is that you're talking about; what is it about this guy that makes you 'love' him? I can take it to a Skype PM if you think it's too personal, or we can just not go there. Whatever works for you. Also, I really do apologise if that hurts your feelings, but that's my opinion.