Mamiamato24
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I felt like writing a story in some style-ish thing I don't really know how to explain.....
But yeah I don't write stuff like this often but I hope you like it so far.
May or may not be based on a true reflection.
Hi.
I'd like to tell you a story. A story about hiding, hiding something not only others wouldn't be capable of grasping, but I as well. It's hard to tell if it's my actual reality or me just being melodramatic. Whatever it is, it sure doesn't feel good. Eating away at everything I thought I ever was, and ending up in an abyss of darkness. To spend the rest of my life in isolation from the world. Finding the truth about yourself...that you were so oblivious to before...hurts. Accepting the fact that my life would never be the same henceforth. It's like I don't even know myself anymore. I thought I did. I like video games, drawing, math, writing...or at least I think I do. Do I?
Nothing appears to be wrong on the outside, which is why the world glances at me without a double take. They can't see inside me, what I'm hiding, what I would let out if I knew the world was an accepting place. No, everyone has to conform to what society has become. Being different...it's not rewarding at all. It's something the world skims over and when they find you...well...you aren't human. Am I? I think I am. Bones, flesh, teeth, soul, brain...life. That sounds pretty human to me. Life.
It's difficult accepting this fear I had my entire life, and letting it in. I'm a hypocrite. It would never happen to me...not in a million years. A billion years. Is this karma for the disrespect I felt towards them? Whatever it is, I don't like it. Not at all. It feels strange...eerie. On the outside I'm fine, but on the inside lies a hollow shell with spiraling wisps trying to path find their way to each other and make sense of what's going on. Each containing a thought, emotion; something I haven't gotten to completely comprehending. Never arranging in a simple pattern that would make sense of everything; that would reveal the answer. Never finding their way, never knowing.
*not done*
~Mamiamato24
But yeah I don't write stuff like this often but I hope you like it so far.
May or may not be based on a true reflection.
Hi.
I'd like to tell you a story. A story about hiding, hiding something not only others wouldn't be capable of grasping, but I as well. It's hard to tell if it's my actual reality or me just being melodramatic. Whatever it is, it sure doesn't feel good. Eating away at everything I thought I ever was, and ending up in an abyss of darkness. To spend the rest of my life in isolation from the world. Finding the truth about yourself...that you were so oblivious to before...hurts. Accepting the fact that my life would never be the same henceforth. It's like I don't even know myself anymore. I thought I did. I like video games, drawing, math, writing...or at least I think I do. Do I?
Nothing appears to be wrong on the outside, which is why the world glances at me without a double take. They can't see inside me, what I'm hiding, what I would let out if I knew the world was an accepting place. No, everyone has to conform to what society has become. Being different...it's not rewarding at all. It's something the world skims over and when they find you...well...you aren't human. Am I? I think I am. Bones, flesh, teeth, soul, brain...life. That sounds pretty human to me. Life.
It's difficult accepting this fear I had my entire life, and letting it in. I'm a hypocrite. It would never happen to me...not in a million years. A billion years. Is this karma for the disrespect I felt towards them? Whatever it is, I don't like it. Not at all. It feels strange...eerie. On the outside I'm fine, but on the inside lies a hollow shell with spiraling wisps trying to path find their way to each other and make sense of what's going on. Each containing a thought, emotion; something I haven't gotten to completely comprehending. Never arranging in a simple pattern that would make sense of everything; that would reveal the answer. Never finding their way, never knowing.
*not done*
~Mamiamato24
