Equalitee
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Hello everyone!
As I write possibly one of my last threads within the community, I want to thank MCGamer Network and its staff for everything they have been able to provide me in the past year and a half.
This community has given me so much joy, so much direction in life, but it has also destroyed me. It has gotten to the point where I have truly lost who I am as a person. VidCon was the first thing to empower me in my life, it is where I came out to the world, where I decided to be myself, but with recent events, the turtle shell I have tried so hard to build has shattered.
Recently, I've been thinking of many things that I originally thought I would never think of again. I think it's a sign. A sign to move on in life. To find another method of happiness. I would be lying if I said I am going to come back, because right now, I do not see that happening. I tried staying strong. For the people who looked up to me, who saw me as a role model. For the people who have supported me through everything in appreciation for what they have been able to provide for me, but I am at my lowest point in life, again, trying to grasp for the last bit of hope. It's gotten to the point where I am not healthy. Physically, mentally, emotionally. It's destroying me. I need to leave the community. I need counselling.
As a goodbye message to everyone, I would like to thank a few specific people.
ChandelleMC: Literally my twin. We have so much in common. Our laughing moments in the past were so funny. To the point where we would cry of laughter. I will forever miss those.
Mariah | mccluremariah: You are my first MCGamer friend. I will forever love you.
Willy446: We had never really talked until recently. I am glad to have been able to open up to you more before I leave the community.
Jodimo: We don't talk much now, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that you are probably one of the most honest, truthful, loving people I have EVER met in my life. I am honestly jealous of all that you have accomplished. Words cannot describe how happy I am for you. You have grown up so much since we have first met. I am glad to have been able to take part in helping you become the person you are today. I remember you telling me all of the issues you had been having in real life, and within the community, and it seems like most of them are gone now, and that you have reached a moment of peace and happiness in your life. I am so happy for you. I have told you this many times before, but I must say it again. The pain I feel when I hear your name, when I see your tweets on Twitter, when I get a Kik message, when you enter the channel on TS, is unbearable. Words cannot describe how much I love you as a person; how much I am in love with you. You will forever be in my heart.
To end this thread, I would like to quote a song and link two videos I hold dear to my heart:
Thank you all. And as always, remember that you are kind. You are smart. You are important. You are beautiful. You are perfect. But most importantly...you are YOU. <3
Lots of love,
Equalitee | Christopher.
As I write possibly one of my last threads within the community, I want to thank MCGamer Network and its staff for everything they have been able to provide me in the past year and a half.
This community has given me so much joy, so much direction in life, but it has also destroyed me. It has gotten to the point where I have truly lost who I am as a person. VidCon was the first thing to empower me in my life, it is where I came out to the world, where I decided to be myself, but with recent events, the turtle shell I have tried so hard to build has shattered.
Recently, I've been thinking of many things that I originally thought I would never think of again. I think it's a sign. A sign to move on in life. To find another method of happiness. I would be lying if I said I am going to come back, because right now, I do not see that happening. I tried staying strong. For the people who looked up to me, who saw me as a role model. For the people who have supported me through everything in appreciation for what they have been able to provide for me, but I am at my lowest point in life, again, trying to grasp for the last bit of hope. It's gotten to the point where I am not healthy. Physically, mentally, emotionally. It's destroying me. I need to leave the community. I need counselling.
As a goodbye message to everyone, I would like to thank a few specific people.
ChandelleMC: Literally my twin. We have so much in common. Our laughing moments in the past were so funny. To the point where we would cry of laughter. I will forever miss those.
Mariah | mccluremariah: You are my first MCGamer friend. I will forever love you.
Willy446: We had never really talked until recently. I am glad to have been able to open up to you more before I leave the community.
Jodimo: We don't talk much now, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that you are probably one of the most honest, truthful, loving people I have EVER met in my life. I am honestly jealous of all that you have accomplished. Words cannot describe how happy I am for you. You have grown up so much since we have first met. I am glad to have been able to take part in helping you become the person you are today. I remember you telling me all of the issues you had been having in real life, and within the community, and it seems like most of them are gone now, and that you have reached a moment of peace and happiness in your life. I am so happy for you. I have told you this many times before, but I must say it again. The pain I feel when I hear your name, when I see your tweets on Twitter, when I get a Kik message, when you enter the channel on TS, is unbearable. Words cannot describe how much I love you as a person; how much I am in love with you. You will forever be in my heart.
To end this thread, I would like to quote a song and link two videos I hold dear to my heart:
"Skies are crying.
I am watching.
Catching teardrops in my hand.
Only silence has it's ending." - Demi Lovato
I am watching.
Catching teardrops in my hand.
Only silence has it's ending." - Demi Lovato
Thank you all. And as always, remember that you are kind. You are smart. You are important. You are beautiful. You are perfect. But most importantly...you are YOU. <3
Lots of love,
Equalitee | Christopher.
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