Please help me -Serious-

[_Simeon]

This has also been posted on The Hive forums, however I was wondering if anyone here could help me.

I need a lot of help, if anyone can, please contact me on skype: simeon.sulc
Right, so over half a year, I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I've had a pretty tough life. Anxiety for 2 1/2 years now, I'm even scared to talk on hive ts, because of my voice.
I've been bullied a lot at school, for my voice, my height, and because I don't really have a dad.
My mum used to foster children, we fostered a little baby, named Erikah. At 8 weeks of age, she lived with us until she was 2, so of course, when she got adopted, I was very upset and got depressed.
This was over a year ago, I still think of her as the happiest person I will ever meet.
So obviously because of this, I've grown a fairly big attachment to my mum. Therefore making it hard to go to school. Over the past 3 days, I've been to school for 1 hour. Which for me, was an achievement.
However, I just feel my life getting worst and worst, that I just want to end it. but then I think of what would happen to my family
I just think that I have no future, as I'm addicted to Minecraft and am not getting educated enough to learn anything, but when I think of getting to school, I just burst into tears.

Can someone please, please help me. Thanks

 

[BetaPuffle]

I will happily speak to you I had a friend going through depression and I helped him along his way I will do everything I can to help

 

[SkillfulReptile]

Please don't do suicide. It's really not worth it. Your mom wouldn't want you to do it. I know it might not seem like she loves you very much. But I bet she does. There will be people who bully you at school. That's just how it is in life. But what I know for sure is that we care for you here. Hi, i'm SkillfulReptile. I'm here to be your friend.

 

[Ali]

Pls no suicide, I can talk to you if you would like; I've been through this b4.

 

[MoLoToV]

You should try to find some serious help, not here just on some random forums. There is alot of places people will help you out of depressions.
You might wana have a good conversation with your mother about this, if it's really this serious she'll help you. You might wana consider just to drop out of school for half a year, and to do things you'd like outside, with people around you. I've had a girl in my class with almost the same problems, It worked for her. She got out of her depression and went to a new school for a fresh start. I know things like this might sound drastic, but if you really feel like this everyday, it'll only drag you down more.

 

[PikachuPals]

This is depressing...

 

[4non]

Please don't ;_;

 

[523ashley]

I personally used to be really truly depressed. I had many suicidal thoughts and I wished I could just start life over. Now, I am an extremely happy person. The biggest thing to know and understand in this kind of situation, is that someone does CARE! I was seriously bullied and when I tried telling adults they wouldn't listen, or would say that it was just part of life and I would get over it. My hardest thing was finding someone to listen. Then the next step was to trust them. Trust was my biggest problem. After telling people and they didn't listen, I had a LOT of trouble trusting others, even family. When you find someone you can trust, you will know and that is the best person to talk to. It took me two years before I finally found that person. I actually found two people I could trust at the same time. One is my best friend, and the other is my school's library specialist. I didn't even like the library before, and now it is my safe place. If you are getting bullied by people at school, you just need to find that safe sanctuary. I understand you don't go to school much. If you really want to continue with school, but don't want to go back to that environment, I suggest taking online classes or even being home-schooled. I too, started getting really addicted to MineCraft when I was depressed. I liked it because I knew I had friends who I excepted me for who I was. They made me laugh and I felt as if I was apart of a real group of friends, mainly because I was. With your anxiety, I recommend researching a little about it and trying to find ways to reduce anxiety for you. People who get anxiety get it for different reasons. When I had really bad anxiety I did a LOT of research to figure out why I was having it, and different strategies to make it not so bad. Do not kill yourself. I now realize it isn't worth it and your family will be even more depressed than you can imagine. Death isn't the answer. I truly, truly believe you can power through this with the right support. It isn't easy, and it never will be. To this day, I find myself still overcoming problems from my past. It is all worth it though, because I know that everything is making me stronger. I also know everything happened for a reason. I am now starting some amazing things, that I would have probably never even thought of if I hadn't experienced those things. Everyone has a purpose in life. You are NOT worthless, and never will be!! Don't be afraid to cry either. It really isn't a bad thing. I am glad to hear that you were able to go to school for an hour for the three days!! That is awesome! Again, if school isn't your thing, I really suggest online school. The number one thing I wish someone had shared with me was just the great privilege of someone listening to what I have to say. If you have a close relationship with your mom, definitely talk to her. I don't know if you are religious, but I encourage you to pray, just once, for help and answers. We can't do everything over the internet, but I know that when I was depressed, and I prayed, something just happened that I couldn't really explain. Keep in mind, you can't always get answers right away. Sometimes it can take a while. Do not give up. If you need someone to really talk to, you can DM me because I don't have skype. Also, if it is a real emergency, call this number, please:
1-800-273-8255. If you give up, you will never know the good things that will come. I can guarantee you that there is good in this world. I hope and pray all your problems will disappear soon. Until then, remember your younger sister and everything good about her. Think of her as your symbol for hope!

The best of wishes,
Ashley or 523ashley

 

[billyguy1]

My suggestion is to talk to the person you trust the most, which in this case appears to be your mum. Tell her how you are feeling, I guarantee she will be willing to help you. Don't end your life. Think about how you felt when you lost Erikah. Think about how your mum felt. Don't make her go through the emotional pain of losing another child. Whenever you are feeling like this, please talk to someone that you trust about this. Ending your life will just cause emotional pain for those who care about you. Don't inflict that pain upon the ones that you love.

 

[bbLLERMC]

Serious please don't. My mom works at a business to help kids like in a depression and please just don't do it

 

[iHaxors/Jess]

Bullying, is annoying, I know. Minecraft, is addicting, I know. Don't lose faith in yourself for what you could become.
I've been through this before, and still am bullyed quite a bit. What I did/do is just walk away. Try to make up something smart, that will make you seem cool, even though this is hard to do and I fail at it all the time, just don't suicide. Talk to someone, that you trust or a counselor/someone that can get you through your feelings.

If you would like to talk, add me on skype at jess123259.

 

[plimpy41]

Don't kill yourself, It's such a waste...you can have so much potential, so much more happy years in life...;_;