Might Be Quitting/DepressedAF

[Aidan]

Hello! So as you may know by now I am Alluzy/TheBlueHoodie. I have recently entered a state of depression about my life and about Minecraft in general. The first year of playing minecraft was amazing. I was a complete noob and I played with my IRL friends, we played for an hour a day I played on a crappy mac laptop. The second year got better. I bought a PC, I developed more online friends, I got Skype and I met Matthew/BrwnePlayz. This was the highlight of my MCSG/Minecraft career. We played every day for hours. We lost 90% of the games but I never cared. We laughed at everything we played around we accidentally killed each other but we were noobs, we didnt care. Around that time as well I began clans. Me and him joined Shadowz and, again never really tryharded though the competitive side of me did show. Shadowz then disbanded and me and him made a clan called JuanZiez. JuanZiez was the horrible. So bad in fact we never won a battle. But either way I loved it, I had some of the best people I ever met in it. Ross, Matthew, and Dominic. But Ross and Dominic quit MCSG/MC, So me and Matthew disbanded it. We then created the legendary "Frost" Which disbanded shortly after and became "Chilled" which renamed to "Primative." My time in Primative was amazing. Words cannot express the times I had with those people. Again, this clan wasnt amazing. Though we had all developed relatively good PvP skills at this time none of us cared if we won or not. The clan lasted over a month and it was an amazing time. I then began feeling depressed, some of the members left, I got more and more competitive and I became sort of an asshole. I am sorry to the people I pissed off in the process. I fought with members constantly and I ended up leaving. At the time I never knew how horrible this would be. I created "Soar" and went into a constant competition with PrimatieV2/FrostV2 and Matthew the friend who had supported me for almost a year then. I then disbanded Unite/Soar and made "Forge." I thought this would solve my problems, having a clan that I owned. But this wasnt the case. I started playing dirty to get wins, to beat Matthew and we have been getting a ton of flame lately, from my friends as well. Currently I am very, very depressed about IRL things: School, Social life, and about Minecraft: People quitting. Matthew, has recently "quit" minecraft, though he claims he hasnt he is on CS:GO constantly and I havent talked to him in weeks. No offense to anyone but I havent talked to anyone I really love talking to for weeks. I usually talk to people for an hour tops, which is a lot shorter than the 12 hour calls I would have with Matthew. I have no idea why I am typing this and telling you guys who probably dont really care but I am sorry to everyone I hurt, and I miss everyone I used to play with (Especially Matthew.)
-Sincerely DepressedAidan

 

[Noah|Vendue]

R.I.P :'(

 

[ShadowFusionz]

We haven't played in a while

 

[Vanicle | Vanessa]

Hey! There's no reason to be down on yourself. Sounds like you got caught in something that we almost all of us can relate with - taking a game way too seriously. The important thing is that you've learned from your mistakes and you're willing to make a change. Think about joining a clan rather than being the leader of one? Maybe that could be less stress on you and it would help you meet more people. I know that I've met several of my friends from just hanging out in clan teamspeaks and not even being in one

Remember that in the end no matter how much you die, its still just a game (I would know... 1.5 years of playing and only around 100 wins). However, the friends you make here are real. Treat them the way they deserve to be treated and if you screw up, your true friends will forgive you. Prioritize real life over this network though, because that's what really matters! If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me. <3

 

[SnoopSean]

*sending personal not-awkward virtual hug of comfortness*