I have seen discussions like this before, and they indeed did get me thinking,
why do people believe it is alright to do bad things ot others? To hurt them?
I have had to endure plenty of experiences towards human psychological suffering, and it feels as if it the worst ordeal to go through as well. Although I was fortunate to have rare encounters with physical bullying, I had seen awful things that occurred within the school grounds, as well as outside, I have seen plenty of bullying and harassment videos that gave me the realization that no one is safe from awful people who wish to make the world a worse place, especially when they do not realize the destruction they are responsible for people's lives.
I have had experiences with bullying towards an extend to where I have considered unspeakable actions, and including self-harm. But what truly got me thinking is
why would some people go for doing things that can can lead to absolute devastation and corruption towards one self-esteem and confidence? The experiences that I had to go through were all proven when I was merely in the seventh grade.
I had serious, and personal family issues undergoing and hence meaning that I wouldn't have been able to see two of my family members for half a year. I had felt completely alone and miserable with two of my family members absent from the picture for a temporary, yet vast amount of time. Unfortunately people have not realized what kinds of pain I had to go through from that, and instead they had the disgusting intent to make my life feel like a living pit of evil and misery. They had lacked the consideration and went ahead and continued.
Despite having to acknowledge this to my teachers, they would pretentiously apologize and the next thing happens is that they continue making you feel downer before you even know it. They have had the audacity to make awful rumors about me, as well as making whispers like "Don't be his friend" "He's a weirdo" "Why are you even hanging out with him?", it felt as if it were some realistic nightmare to which the only way out is by living in it anyways. And the worst part is, that instead of people standing up for me and saying "You can't say who I will or will not be friends with.", they just go for listening to them and go ahead and join their sadistic and disgusting humor known as their "fun"...
I was so perplexed, to why people would go ahead and doing such sort of things, as well as being so inconsiderate, and ignorant about what damages that go to effect can cause to the victim. They do not realize how badly they damage the individual's self esteem and confidence just by their poor, trash-filled choice of words.
Kindness does indeed go such a long way, and despite how optimistic, and how kind I have tried to go for some people, it was simply not enough for them, I have been influenced that some people do not deserve other's kindness, for the actions they have caused. I have learnt that despite how far you would go ahead for making acts of kindness, they will never be that grateful as they should be, they have not realized what they have done, and what they have lost. And that is my trust.
Yet again, the world's population is filled with over seven-
billion people. And I have indeed met some very kind, considerate, and truly caring individuals who were indeed there for me when I had my issues, unfortunately we have usually parted ways, or are in a long distance kind of friendship, but I am indeed grateful for having to have met them.
Yet again, I am absolutely grateful to be within this community, in a way it has felt to me as a personal sanctuary,
no lifer. Lol. I am grateful to know that there are indeed great, and wonderful people within this community who do care, who do consider the things you have gone through, or even understand any issues. I'm grateful to be within a diverse, and caring community, I truly am.
