Do you Suffer from Depression?

[MrMad2000]

Okay, this might seem like a silly question in some cases, but this is also very serious...
Do you suffer from depression?
My mum has Manic Depression, bipolar and Diabeties (Not a mental health issue but it can be traumatizing)
and I feel like I might also suffer from some sort of minor Depression issue.

I've got AD-HD and Autism so that might play a part in it.

Lately i've been feeling very down and depressed. And this is why...
(Don't say it's pathetic or something like that because if I see that i'll be even more depressed)

On the 18th of September, 2013. (The year we're currently in)
I was on facebook and saw a smosh article.

"6 youtube creators who got off with their own movie" and what did I see? Inappropriate body part on a male Figures...

My old friend. @InsanePickaxe, who has quit MCSG, set his skype profile picture to this once, and I was wondering what it is, he told me about it breifly but I didn't like the sound of it...

Now me seeing that smosh article... I WANTED to see what Inappropriate body part on a male Figures really was... I watched ALL the episodes from series 1 - 4 and the music video and stuff. Then seen that the day previous to that. (17th of september) the movie was released... So I watched it online for free (illegal but still) and felt really bad because of the plot twist in the story... I watched it yesterday and almost cried...

Then I thought to myself... "Who are my real friends."

Is it worth being a nerd like me? Who can I trust. I feel like i'm abused and no one cares (i'm not though) but I feel like my friends don't care about me, I feel like I don't have friends, but the couple people on the internet that are NEVER ON because they live in California *Cough Cough* @KatyRoseRain, and that she's busy with school. Or old friends like @Roellie89 or @Copa3797 which I never really talk too much anymore.

I feel like having "internet" friends and only having like 4 proper ones i'm gonna loose contact with in about a few months is disgraceful for me. I have no self-esteem, and feel like no one cares. I used to be known in the MCSG community, i'm now hidden in the dust and when my name is finally heard it's no longer "oh I know that guy" it's like "It rings a bell but he's probably some nerd I hated back in SG V1."

I just don't know anymore... I've actually wanted to commit suicide before but I knew that would be a stupid idea because it wouldn't be worth it (back in early 2012) and then thought Nah... No point in doing that. I'll just go cry in a corner and be a cleaner when i'm older...

I hate who I am. I want to be someone i'm not, but I want to be myself...

I'm 13 and I weigh 16 STONE! That's probably heavier than your mum and/or dad. And i'm only 13!!! I'm super fat, hate sport, socially awkward, stupid (in my opinion) and feel like I have no life value.


I just don't know anymore. I feel like i'm loosing myself without knowing. I wanna be a fit, smart, popular strong kid that everyone looks up too. But that's just a dream. A dream that'll never happen.


So? What should I do?

 

[RC_4777]

Find something you like. Something that makes you happy. It can be anything. Stick with that thing, and try to meet others who like it too. Always remember that out there, there is someone that cares about you.

 

[MrMad2000]

Find something you like. Something that makes you happy. It can be anything. Stick with that thing, and try to meet others who like it too. Always remember that out there, there is someone that cares about you.

I used to Love Minecraft, I don't now. I used to love SG. I don't now. I used to love Wartune. I don't know. I used to love Music. I don't like it much now. I used to love watching Youtube. I don't now. I used to love graphics design and video editing, I don't now... I used to love facebook, I don't now. I used to LOVE the forums... I don't now... I used to love watching live streams, I don't now. My favourite youtuber? I don't now. Want to learn Java Code when i'm older? I don't now. Want to do good at school? I don't now...

I seem to HATE everything because of one or two small events happen :/

 

[Matt_The Dreamer]

Then do something about it. You want to be fit? Do exercise. You want to be less stupid? Study more. You want more friends? Go out and find people who share your interests. No offence, but if you want to do something, then do it.

 

[MrMad2000]

Then do something about it. You want to be fit? Do exercise. You want to be less stupid? Study more. You want more friends? Go out and find people who share your interests. No offence, but if you want to do something, then do it.

But I feel that if I try all i'll end up is a result of failure and mistakes and problems i've caused for myself that I can't learn from/resolve.

I feel like anything I do is wrong. :/ I've always been told that i'm not stupid and that but then I feel like i'm treated like it. And held back... :/ Okay so i've got good grades at school but that doesn't really mean much too me anyways.

I'm grateful that you're trying to help Matt. But also. Saying "just do it" isn't as simple as what it sounds like. I've been trying to "Just do it" for too long now that i've given up. I don't enjoy anything anymore, and I don't think that many people would share the same interests as me. As i'm quite a geek and everyone in my school is either the "cool kid" or a girl. There's no geeks at my school really. There's one other person who's overweight within my entire year (or grade, as you americans call it.) Called Thomas and he's just annoying and rude.

 

[Matt_The Dreamer]

But I feel that if I try all i'll end up is a result of failure and mistakes and problems i've caused for myself that I can't learn from/resolve.

I feel like anything I do is wrong. :/ I've always been told that i'm not stupid and that but then I feel like i'm treated like it. And held back... :/ Okay so i've got good grades at school but that doesn't really mean much too me anyways.

I'm grateful that you're trying to help Matt. But also. Saying "just do it" isn't as simple as what it sounds like. I've been trying to "Just do it" for too long now that i've given up. I don't enjoy anything anymore, and I don't think that many people would share the same interests as me. As i'm quite a geek and everyone in my school is either the "cool kid" or a girl. There's no geeks at my school really. There's one other person who's overweight within my entire year (or grade, as you americans call it.) Called Thomas and he's just annoying and rude.

I'm not American. But I'll let that slide

Believe it or not, I know exactly what you mean. I was in the same position. I was overweight, felt stupid, even imagined suicide. But I decided a while back that I would take my life into my own hands. While you seem to be losing control. "Just do it." Too many people say it's not that simple, It actually kind of is. The fact that you gave up tells me that you weren't trying hard enough. If you want something, you really have to be determined for it. You put enough determination into things and it should work. I joined karate to combat my Fat and went running with my Dad every week.

If you don't enjoy it, then tough. That's really all I can say. Determination to get through the hard things is what drives us to succeed. For the longest time I hated my Karate, I never wanted to go. Until one day, it just clicked with me and I've never looked back. In regards to you friend situation, hobbies are a great place to find friends. If MCSG is really the only hobby you have, then find people online that live near you, perhaps they can be good friends. I must say I can't help you with this one, I've always had mates I can talk with. I don't believe there aren't any geeks in your school. They must all converge in my school and run away from yours .

 

[Qualia]

Then do something about it. You want to be fit? Do exercise. You want to be less stupid? Study more. You want more friends? Go out and find people who share your interests. No offence, but if you want to do something, then do it.

This is what I did >

 

[NyanCaatt]

Yo m8. I was the same. I feel you. I used to feel like everyone hated me. So I just stayed alone. I used to be known in places - Then it changed somehow.. But I changed something. I literally just changed.. I went from being one of the most unpopular people to one of the most popular people at my school.. But how? Well.. I was myself.. I basically admitted to everyone that I spent my life on the computer but I kinda joked around about it. You know? I was just one of the funniest people you could meet to them? They would laugh at like everything I said.. You know? I say you know too much.. But yeah. I could make anything into a joke yet when it's time to be serious I am. Honestly - They all laugh at my awkward sense of humour, not at me... I used to be like hated by everyone but I changed that, I used to hate sport but I changed that, well not really but.. Well I kinda did. I kinda hate but like sport now, it depends what we're doing.. I dunno, if it's T-Ball or something I just leave. I hate T-ball that game sucks. Or athletics. Omg I hate athletics... They MAKE me do it and it's like.. Can you not.. Anyways, back on topic.. I hate social events! I always have and always will.. I openly admitted to it. And they wondered why.. I said I hated people.. And you know what. I do.. I openly admitted that it makes me really depressed to be around people IRL and it gives me anxiety.. Unless it's a birthday party and I'm staying the night, then it all changes.

EDIT: I will openly admit - I did think about suicide once because I was going through downs and it was getting worse.. But then I started thinking positive and it all changed.. All of it. I made a LOAD of friends.. Yo just think positive.. c:

Eh.. Well that took me like 2 minutes to type but whatever. I know your feels m8. c:

 

[Qualia]

But I feel that if I try all i'll end up is a result of failure and mistakes and problems i've caused for myself that I can't learn from/resolve.

I feel like anything I do is wrong. :/ I've always been told that i'm not stupid and that but then I feel like i'm treated like it. And held back... :/ Okay so i've got good grades at school but that doesn't really mean much too me anyways.

I'm grateful that you're trying to help Matt. But also. Saying "just do it" isn't as simple as what it sounds like. I've been trying to "Just do it" for too long now that i've given up. I don't enjoy anything anymore, and I don't think that many people would share the same interests as me. As i'm quite a geek and everyone in my school is either the "cool kid" or a girl. There's no geeks at my school really. There's one other person who's overweight within my entire year (or grade, as you americans call it.) Called Thomas and he's just annoying and rude.

Just inputting, if you tell yourself that you will fail, and can't succeed or progress, you probably won't. Self confidence is vital, if you are always afraid of experimenting then you will remain that way.
Coming from someone older, you best start now. I essentially became a hermit, stayed indoors all the time, and didn't develop in areas that I need to; bear in mind your situation is not identical to mine but the principles of advancement are perfectly applicable.

I was really athletic until I found out about the internet, then I lost my touch, wasn't so in tune. Being the fool I am, I chose the GCSE PE course to take, which is basically extra PE. For this I need(ed) to choose 4 sports to be marked on, so what I did was go to the local sports clubs. After a few months, I was beyond an intermediate level and can now dribble a basketball between my legs, bla bla bla.

If you're worried about being 'popular', do something about it.

• Become interesting - Participate in various activities, keep up with the times, read and watch interesting articles, basically vary your life. If you talk about something that you're interested in, people will probably find you interesting and will interject with their own comments which could lead onto a whole, lengthy conversation that you could then relay to another group of people.
• Become confident about your physical image, since you're overweight, go jogging or join a sports club; don't expect miracles in minutes but you will get to a comfortable weight and size if you keep at it, persistence is necessary.
  One thing I can tell you from experience is that it's safer to get your hair cut and keep it smart, if you look smart, people will perceive you as smart or able to take care of yourself which makes you more approachable.
  I don't know if this is an issue for you but I'll just go and say it anyway. ^^^
• Educate yourself - Do all of your homework, pay attention in class, read further into subjects and if you are unsure of something, gooooooooooooogle it.
• Set yourself goals - What do you want? How will you work towards it? What can you do to prevent or reduce tedium?

This is just the stuff I've done, google stuff >

 

[Nick]

I suffer from G.A.D(Generalized anxiety disorder) and a way I get out of the tension is by reading. I used to hate reading but once you find something that sparks interest, read it. If you suffer from a broken heart or something related to relationships, friendships, family, etc. I recommend reading "The Perks Of Being A Wallflower". The book and the movie highly differ. Anyways, if you ever need anyone to talk to, don't hesitate to contact me ,

 

[Edog]

Bro we all go through it im 15 and have friends who do drugs and shoplift its a little sad and hard not to hang with them.

So you do drugs and shoplift?

 

[Tzazon]

I've done things I'd rather not mention, but I've been depressed before in my life the way I got over it was an unusual thing. Well first was very usual, I found something I enjoyed, in my case I made friends and got out of the house by playing D&D you heard me right, dungeons and dragons. Ahah. This was when I was 15, 2 years ago. I lost those friends when I moved this April, well lost the times and moments with them. Now it's all just Facebook convos and texting. :/. Either way. The way I got happy with myself was just joking about myself rather than look in the mirror and hate myself or how I look with low self esteem I ended up just joking about it and it honestly keeps me happy. As long as I'm laughing at myself and the world, I have no time to be depressed.