Frazzli185
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Hey guys,
A lot of you may know me, some may not as I'm not really a forummer. But for people that don't I'll explain some things. I'm Lauren, or Frazzli185, I got mod 266 days ago, and recieved trial Sr mod 118 days ago. I've learnt quite a lot from being in the staff team. I thought I’d be here longer but it's gotten to the point that I really don't find it fun anymore and i have a lot going on.
Sorry for the super long post but yeah, I guess this is just a way of me explaining how I feel and having a bit of a rant. As there are some things I'd like to address.
Its difficult to be part of something that seems so separated. It seems like you hate us and we hate you, when we do the opposite. Me personally, I care for each and every member of this community, staff or not, whether you've hurt me in the past or been there for me, or never met me, I care about everyone. Always have always will. I hoped me becoming a Sr Staff member would help. And I’m happy I started the cleansweeps again, as I met some awesome people, and met some of the mods I hadn't spoken to before, but things are getting tricky.
Regarding the staff team in general. We have an amazing staff team, if you're in it or ever find yourself in it, you'll meet some amazing people, people you'll never forget. But I found when I got trial, my mod friends were scared I wouldn’t spend time with them anymore, which wasn't the case for me, but it altered friendships, and it shouldn’t. And they thought this because it has been seen in the past. I want to be there for everyone, everyone in the staff team, every new person, every donor. Because everyone deserves to feel part of something, and I know it feels like some aren't.
I find that it is hard to communicate with people on here anymore, everyone just seems to argue with anyone, about anything, for the sake of having an argument. Although I try to be there, and tried to help as much as possible, it's like no one acknowledges you exist sometimes, no matter how much you’re helping. People need something to feel proud of and I personally feel like people don't get thanked enough for what they do. Even if its a "thank you for being around". People don't get or give that enough.
Overall, I just don't feel happy anymore. I have a lot going on in real life, a new job, where I work all weekend, and have college all week too, so I just don’t have the time anymore . University applications are coming soon and everything is getting serious for me.
Its super difficult to resign because I love the people I've met here. And I wouldn't trade those people for the world. I really wouldn't as they are the best kind of people. The staff team has been like my little family for 8 months so its really hard to leave, but priorities are in my life.
I just want to say thank you, to each and every member who has ever complimented me or has been nice to me, or anyone else, as it really brightens people's days. And I want to thank Sean for convincing me to apply in the first place, if anything you were the reason I got so far. I want to thank Laurey for being the best kind of friend you can be, ily. And SharkyCraft_ , Krypton, Zacharoutio , KRaidium and Mango for always being there to cheer people up. And AmyGlitters and TheOneHarry , landowicked JasonDeBaxter for being amazing friends and people. And Sam for making Amy happy. DarkNiightz because best tem. And of course benholl98 and KitMencha for being so nice and patient to everyone. And Dave, AlpakaWhacker and Cubes for making me a part of things, when I felt like I wasn't. And 123456789matrty for making EU open mic night amazing every time. And so many more, old friends or new. I love each and every one of you.
And finally. I’d like to apologise to all the people I’m letting down or have let down, by resigning. I had a lot going on here and it seems like I’m dropping it all. I’m sorry.
But this is my goodbye, I don't know if I'll come back to the staff team, I hope I can. But right now I need to focus on other things in real life. I hope everything goes well for everyone, and everyone is okay. I wish you all the best of luck with your lives.
Byebye, for now.
A lot of you may know me, some may not as I'm not really a forummer. But for people that don't I'll explain some things. I'm Lauren, or Frazzli185, I got mod 266 days ago, and recieved trial Sr mod 118 days ago. I've learnt quite a lot from being in the staff team. I thought I’d be here longer but it's gotten to the point that I really don't find it fun anymore and i have a lot going on.
Sorry for the super long post but yeah, I guess this is just a way of me explaining how I feel and having a bit of a rant. As there are some things I'd like to address.
Its difficult to be part of something that seems so separated. It seems like you hate us and we hate you, when we do the opposite. Me personally, I care for each and every member of this community, staff or not, whether you've hurt me in the past or been there for me, or never met me, I care about everyone. Always have always will. I hoped me becoming a Sr Staff member would help. And I’m happy I started the cleansweeps again, as I met some awesome people, and met some of the mods I hadn't spoken to before, but things are getting tricky.
Regarding the staff team in general. We have an amazing staff team, if you're in it or ever find yourself in it, you'll meet some amazing people, people you'll never forget. But I found when I got trial, my mod friends were scared I wouldn’t spend time with them anymore, which wasn't the case for me, but it altered friendships, and it shouldn’t. And they thought this because it has been seen in the past. I want to be there for everyone, everyone in the staff team, every new person, every donor. Because everyone deserves to feel part of something, and I know it feels like some aren't.
I find that it is hard to communicate with people on here anymore, everyone just seems to argue with anyone, about anything, for the sake of having an argument. Although I try to be there, and tried to help as much as possible, it's like no one acknowledges you exist sometimes, no matter how much you’re helping. People need something to feel proud of and I personally feel like people don't get thanked enough for what they do. Even if its a "thank you for being around". People don't get or give that enough.
Overall, I just don't feel happy anymore. I have a lot going on in real life, a new job, where I work all weekend, and have college all week too, so I just don’t have the time anymore . University applications are coming soon and everything is getting serious for me.
Its super difficult to resign because I love the people I've met here. And I wouldn't trade those people for the world. I really wouldn't as they are the best kind of people. The staff team has been like my little family for 8 months so its really hard to leave, but priorities are in my life.
I just want to say thank you, to each and every member who has ever complimented me or has been nice to me, or anyone else, as it really brightens people's days. And I want to thank Sean for convincing me to apply in the first place, if anything you were the reason I got so far. I want to thank Laurey for being the best kind of friend you can be, ily. And SharkyCraft_ , Krypton, Zacharoutio , KRaidium and Mango for always being there to cheer people up. And AmyGlitters and TheOneHarry , landowicked JasonDeBaxter for being amazing friends and people. And Sam for making Amy happy. DarkNiightz because best tem. And of course benholl98 and KitMencha for being so nice and patient to everyone. And Dave, AlpakaWhacker and Cubes for making me a part of things, when I felt like I wasn't. And 123456789matrty for making EU open mic night amazing every time. And so many more, old friends or new. I love each and every one of you.
And finally. I’d like to apologise to all the people I’m letting down or have let down, by resigning. I had a lot going on here and it seems like I’m dropping it all. I’m sorry.
But this is my goodbye, I don't know if I'll come back to the staff team, I hope I can. But right now I need to focus on other things in real life. I hope everything goes well for everyone, and everyone is okay. I wish you all the best of luck with your lives.
Byebye, for now.
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